My First Tuesday with Kat

I stole a quote from S D V a while ago: The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart. ~Elisabeth Foley

After my first week of school back from England, I felt drained. This weekend I spent time with calvin; he is my home, my sanctuary. With him, he knows history that no one else knows, or that I don't need to explain in introductions.

Now, I have weekly lunches with some of my best girl friends whom I never hang out with. This past Tuesday, I had an hour and a half with Kat. We met in art school and when we got into Irvine, our circles were vastly different. This goes the same with a lot of other people. Although I admire and love very specific people in my life, they fall into different social circles. Thus no hang out bonding time.

Yet I feel change, in my self, in others, and in the world....

Kat has changed. We talked about love, marriage, kids...Something that Calvin and I talk about because we have always been serious like that. But for Kat to talk seriously about love, marriage, children....is friggin ridiculous....unexpected...surprising....

Honestly, I couldn't be happier. Here are the reasons why:

1. First and foremost, I am excited to have someone in the transitional thinking that I have been for a long time. This transitional period of planning for the future, thinking about my wants and the effects on the family I also want is lonely. I feel old. I have had too many hit-it-and-quit-its in my life. I am plunging.....for my the betterment of my self. The fact that Kat is now sharing this same transitional mentality is splendid

2. Love. I am very happy and satisfied with Calvin. He went to England to surprise me, he went to England to send me off, he spent the summer 08 with me. And though we spent our every days together, we both still have the butterflies and we both still maintain our individuality. Yesterday we got a purple and white widow session going, but I didn't smoke because of my resolution. Even though I didn't smoke, he and I could read each other's minds without saying a word and from across the patio. It's a mutual thang. We make each other laugh and we both laugh. We make each other giddy and we both feel giddy. We show each other how to love, and we both feel loved. This works for us. And I'm glad that Kat has found someone to work, fall, support, love.

3. She is happy and her happiness spews, spills, and spreads to me and vice versa.


In an hour and a half, I rekindled and resparked a doubt in my self and in my love.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TSmfNxmaQHc