A Brief

So it's 3:13 in the morning. the night before SPOP 4 and I just finished updating myself on other people's blogs and finished chatting with some of my spoppers from spop 2-p5!

honestly....i was thinking about the last time i wrote a blog entry and i must say that it has been a while. for the most part it's not really neglecting the journal, but truly living life. i'm going to go with phil lee's topic of thinking too much because i often get caught up in thinking so much that i can't enjoy or experience life.

but spop has truly shown me what living life means. it shows me what love is. and in the craziness of dramas, heartbreaks, and struggles...i find myself strugglng to let love shine through in everything i do and everyone i talk to because i honestly care about their success. i want them to explore the potential within themselves and share it with the rest of the world.

on the drive down from spnorcal with doris (jeremy was sleeping), we were reflecting on spop and how it truly changes people. i'm so privileged to experience such a change. i know that people are made of surprises and i am thoroughly surprised by all the people i've staffed with/hope to staff with. anyway, i was thinking about if everyone in the entire world were themselves, and helped each other out, stepped out of their comfort zones, and went out of their way to help someone else. imagine a world like that! how beautiful and happy people would be. to truly help and lift people is so much more reqarding than material posessions. granted, sometimes money and things are nice, a wise economics professor once told me, "Happiness is measured by how much you're valued as a human; a human's worth." and my gold staffers are truly worth every moment....they are needed and they are happy because they know that people depend/trust them.

and even though i am guilty for not spending every waking moment with my staffers, i'm thinking about them, or talking about them. (honestly, all i talked about was staff and spop in the car ride up to norcal and back down from norcal.)

i definitely need to pay it forward to the people who continually push me...even though they are doing their own things...their success and triumphs in life push me farther. so big ups to ray ray, omar, jhust, mike song, phil lee....even though i don't talk to you all on the daily...i think about you men and strive to be better and am glad that i have crossed paths with you.

soo goodnight...and live tomorrow as if it were the last day to live.